Well Brian is gone on his business trip and I have made it home. I have had so many mixed emotions. When I landed in SLC I started to cry. Not because I was sad to be here, but because I was so happy. So happy to feel like I was back in my environment, my comfort zone. I miss Brian so much. It has made me realize how difficult it is going to be when he leaves on business. I am home with my family and everything I love and I still feel sad I don't get to see and talk to him. How am I going to do this when I am all by myself in Indiana? I can't decide if this was a good idea for me to come or not. It has been so wonderful to be here. I realized how much I truly LOVE it in Idaho. It really does make me NOT want to go home. I have not taken one picture while being here. Granted, it is still early, but I don't see a point. Everything here isn't picture worthy. People travel here for their two week summer vacation. They take pictures of the Tetons, the bears, the deer and even cows. Those things are just part of every day life. Rivers, mountains, Yellowstone, Jackson, lakes, boating, exploring, cows, horses, pasture, big trucks. They don't have things like that in IN. You live somewhere for almost 22 years and things become engrained in to you, your heart, your soul. How do you just pick up and leave and just pretend things don't matter and you can just pick up a totally new life that includes NOTHING of what makes you you?
I need new hobbies. I am thinking of taking up sewing. I want to make new couch pillows and curtains. I keep thinking of things I really want to do but then realize how expensive they can get and then I forget the idea. Off the new and cheaper options.
I totally know how you feel! Living away from home is not fun, plus I think Idaho has the best food anywhere I've been! My aunt lives in Indiana somewhere, I'll have to find out where and let you know, she's really sweet!
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