There has been a lot on my mind lately. My mom, aunts and sister-in-laws all watch a common show found on Thursday nights. No, I am not going to say which show that is but if any one knows any of us, you can probably guess which show it is. Well, Brian and I don’t have cable so I watch the show first thing Friday mornings as soon as I roll out of bed. J
The two main characters are named Christina and Merideth. Since the very first episode of the series, these two girls have had such a special bond with one another and are now the best of friends. Is it just in TV that friendships like that are found? Sometimes I wonder. It has been years since I feel like I have had that.
So the other day I found a new show on Netflix. Wow. You must think all I do is watch TV! I promise I don’t. Mainly just at nights when we are settling down for the evening. I found the biggest looser. I have never seen this show before. Well I may have seen like an episode before but that’s it. I started at season 5 I think. Don’t ask me why, I just did. I kind of figure that the first few seasons of shows can be low budget and therefore maybe not as good, so you start in the middle and work yourself backwards. This show has done two things for me.
The first goes back to the whole friend thing. Everyone just learns to love each other and cry when anyone leaves. There are two guys that have been best friends for 22 years. How is that possible?! They said they don’t even talk anymore because they don’t have to. They can basically read each other’s minds. How is that even possible. And especially for guys! But then I thought, maybe friendships like that aren’t in the minority, maybe it is just me. I have come to the realization that I am the alien. Not everyone else.
I need like a friendship recipe book to follow. The “ How To- How to be- How to Make’ a best friend book
The second thing Biggest Looser has done for me… Marathon numero dos!
That’s right, I have decided to officially start running again. I have said this before but this time I am determined. Believe me, I know how much work it is to prepare. I guess you could say I am doing this for completely selfish reasons. I want to loose 7 pounds. I want to be in shape. I want to say I have run 2 marathons. I want to be able to be part of something that only 1% of the human population will ever do.
Most people that know me know I don’t like to do things that I can not excel at. I think that is why I haven’t wanted to run a marathon seriously again until now. I know where I am at, and how extremely far and how hard it will be to be able to run easily and at will again. Hopefully I can keep up the motivation. I have to humble myself and start at step one.
Tonight is stake volleyball night. The R.S president asked me to go with her and I said yes. I DID NOT want to, but Brian made me. Again, it goes back to I don’t do things I can’t do well. I have not played since the championship against St. Maries in 2007. 4 Years ago this weekend. I don’t want to go. I am tempted to cancel because I really don’t feel good today thanks to the stupid dentist. I am scared. Brian said in church that I was a great volleyball player and now I am being recruited by all these people in our ward. I have been able to blow them off until now. Brian may think I was good, but I really wasn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I loved it, and still love it, but I never made it a priority in my life after graduation like a lot of the other girls on my team. Hard to believe based upon where I am now, I was dedicated to school and homework and grades and did very well my first few semesters of college that I didn’t want to give up any time I didn’t have. They all had two extra semesters off before they all started school that they could play. I don’t want to walk in to the gym and be the worst one and have people say, what was Brian talking about.
I think there is a ‘help you find work’ place by my house. I have applied for three jobs and haven’t heard anything on them so I am going to take it that they are a no. The extra money would be really nice to have right now. Yea for bills and expenses! NOT.
I am nervous. I don’t feel qualified to do anything. Basically just be a target cashier. No offense to those who actually work there! That is just not a respectable job to have here of all places. Land of the educated Purdue people EVERYWHERE! I feel like I would be an embarrassment to Brian as well. He has worked so hard and has a wonderful job and is sure to go far places. I would hate for him to be talking to the very important people he talks with and say ya, my wife is a grocery store cashier.
I have been extremely blessed in my life. As soon as I graduated high school I have had a good paying job. In Rexburg as a college student, that truly is an accomplishment. I have never had to sell myself for a job before. Judy asked me to come work for her before I even started school at BYU-I. Then out of the blue I get contacted by the president at Premier and asks me if I will come work for them after I did a little bit of work for them the previous year.
Up until a few weeks ago I have never needed a résumé. This will be another new experience for me while in Indiana as I have to go out and find something. I am scarred of rejection.
Well, enough about me. Brian is in NC this week and says it is beautiful. I wish I could have gone. My mom and I want to go on a Nicholas Sparks tour. A lot of his books take place there so we would love to go see the magical places he talks about. Maybe next time!
He sure does love his job and I am very proud of him!!
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